15 February 2008

Hope is a dangerous thing.

Hope is a double edged sword, It might benefit you, it might disappoint you. I pondered and thought much about it and i still can't come to a conclusion should I still believe in "HOPE" ? October 2007, i placed much hope, i gave it my best, i worked hard just to be denied in the end because of my moments of folly back back then in 2006. I guess my best was not enough. I placed much hope in appealling only to be shot down back to earth with a simple email. I found out some people weren't that good after all but they still had a shot at it why wasn't I given the same opportunity. I wrote my appeal with much sincerity and hope that the result would be in my favour.

But hope is a dangerous thing, and it is still now, I have so much hope in my future plans and i wouldn't want the same outcome to befall me. My hope equates to much optimism that i have and see things, which I "hope" will turn out fine.

Everytime I hoped for something and i don't get it i perceive it as failure on my part. Instead of succumbing to the self -pitying nature of man; instead of looking forward, he tends to dwell on the past and hence a failed man always lives in his shadow. It is human nature to hope for the best.

Which bring me to the point of "Hope is a dangerous thing"; never put in too much hope or you'll get stabbed; the very soul gets wounded. Rather then wallowing in self pity and never rise after tasting failure. Why not hope for the best and work towards it. This has been the case for me hope for the best and work towards it, but i feel that my best isn't my all maybe that why hope became a dangerous thing .

Successful people tell others to rise after a failure. But how many people actually rise after a failure and recover from that shock and wounds to the soul? Maybe that is why theres only a handful of successful people? Certainly it is painful to try to rise after a failure and get shot down again and rise again.

With so much hope i have, i just "HOPE" that what i've done to realize those hope actually materialize and happen.

I really hope that i could become a role model or even a learning example and i definitely fear failure as Winston Churhill onced said that, " The price of greatness is responsibilty " the greater the responsibility, the greater the ill effects of failure are felt. Having approximately 120 young impressionable young minds under you does instill a sense of responsibility coupled with my sense of duty, obligation and the passion to serve on i fear the reprecussion of failure but HOPING too much as i said is just as dangerous.

With that it has further galvanized my conviction to "Do the best in everything you do, if you know that you have done your best there won't be regrets" but tucked in the corner of my heart theres always resentment and regrets. Maybe that the self pitying nature of men that we have to be careful of.

So much for my 2 cents worth. I began to ponder on with other motion "The beginning of wisdom is fear?"

Which i leave it for another time.....

|| Rafale || || Strikeagle || ||
2/15/2008 11:30:00 AM

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